January 5, 2006,
Dear Friends,
Well, another year is upon us, and
another one has
gone by. My daughter is 6 now, and I am only 4 years from being 40......
My how
time flies.... *chuckle*. But God is good, and I am
thankful....
Someone asked me if I would recap once
again what
all I am trying to do here at the ranch, list my goals, etc and so
forth... I
will do so at the end of this letter for those of you who are
curious.
As for my life, and the ranch, there
are some very
exciting things happening in both arenas.
The ranch first.
1. We are in contract negotiations with
the owner
to secure the property here finally. God laid it on an investors heart
to step
forward and provide the initial funding, at least for the downpayment.
Now we
are just working out the details with the owners. What an answer to
prayer! Keep
praying though, the ink is not on the line yet.
2. The Spanish churches of the Treasure
Valley
continue to express interest in holding youth camps for their youth
here. We are
exploring this with them, and I believe God is in it. I speak Spanish
so-so, but
I guess I will be brushing it up and learning more over the weeks and
months
ahead. These churches, as minority churches, have in many ways been
overlooked
by many of the mainline churches in the area, and they also have very
little
access to the big established Christian camps and campgrounds around the
area.
So this is a good fit, as it has been one of my goals all along to
provide
camping opportunities to the youth of small churches (minority and white
both)
of the Treasure Valley and 5 county area (Ada, Canyon, Gem, Elmore,
Boise) that
have no other access to good local camping facilities or programs.
3. I found an awesome deal ($125) on
some huge
batteries (out of Railroad locomotives - used, but guaranteed good and
already
charged) to augment our power system here (we generate our own
electricity).
They will add over a thousand amp-hours (at 12 volts dc) worth of
electricity
storage to the system here. I would have picked them up already, but my
4-wheel
drive truck's front wheel drive is not working and I can't get there.
That's a
prayer request, that I can get the truck running and go get the
batteries
(roughly 1800 lbs worth of high power deep-cycle batteries ). These
batteries
will be critical once we start running camps up here. God is totally
preparing
the place for ministry,
4. My existing battery bank here (about
200 amp
hours in size) went down several weeks ago, as did both generators, and
it took
me some time to get the battery bank back up and operational, and
then one
of the generators back up in a limping fashion. God helped me on some of
that by
showing me how when I asked Him. I am thankful to Him. And to think that
there
are people out there that don't believe God exists or believe that He
doesn't
interact with us, or even with those that seek Him.... *sad head
shaking*. I SOO
desperately wish people knew Him like I do. He is soo cool! So real! He
talks to
me sometimes, and listens to me, and is my companion each day, when I
remember
to give Him time... I see hurting people all around me, and I know that
if they
only knew Jesus in a personal way like I do, He would help them deal
with their
stuff... I guess it's just hard to see people floundering and drowning,
but
refusing to talk to God in their pain, the one person in this universe
that can
truly help them. Anyway....
5. The ranch Christmas party was a
success, if
success is measured by whether or not people enjoyed themselves.....
There were
about 21 people here, and we had an enjoyable time just eating,
fellowshipping,
and exchanging gifts. The food was very good.... *chuckle* (Yes, single
man
speaking here...)
6. The ranch is now a legally
incorporated
organization. Using funds provided by a church in Arkansas, I filed the
incorporation papers to make it a legal organization, during
the last
week of December. God is good. It almost didn't happen either... See
below in my
personal life details. God totally worked it out.
7. Several days before Christmas, a
family that is
building a youth ranch in Honduras (Refuge of the Pines) stopped by and
spent
the night. It was very cool to meet them finally, compare some notes,
and talk
about God, youth, family, and just cool things. They have already taken
in like
20+ kids into their own home as they build conference and camp ground
facilities, and an orphanage/youth ranch. Cool neat people. I respect a
couple
that can embrace troubled youth, take them in, and love them like their
own. I
met 8 of their kids (both natural and adopted and orphanage) that came
with
them, and I was impressed at what God is doing with/thru them, and also
with
their passion and their heart for wounded youth. At some point, I would
like to
take a work team down their ranch for a week or two and help them out
with some
of their stuff (they have been through the wringer in some ways, but
God has also poured out blessing on them after they proved
themselves
faithful even in the hard times). It's very cool.
8. How about a miracle? Anyone for a
miracle?
Remember that cold snap here in Southwestern Idaho several weeks ago,
where it
got so cold for two weeks and stayed cold? Well, according to the local
thermometers, it got down to almost 15 below zero in some places here
(Fahrenheit) - that's almost 25 below for you metric people out there.
And the
community water supply froze up. And about a hundred feet of exposed
plastic
pipe feeding the ranch water supply also froze. Solid. Remember -
plastic.
Remember, between 10 and 15 below zero. I went to Oklahoma for
Christmas, and
without fires in the wood stove in the lodge here (although a neighbor
did say
that if it got too cold, he would come over and build a fire just to
keep things
from freezing), I also expected burst pipes in here as well. I
figured the
pipes would be cracked all the way down the line, and possibly all
through
the house, and that I was out of water till spring time when I could
replace
pipes in the house and deeply bury new line outside. Science and
logic said
they would burst (pipes have burst here in the past with temperatures
warmer
than this). But then remember how it warmed up for almost 2 weeks next
(just
after I left for Oklahoma - right when I was not here to keep the house
warm)?
Well the water lines all thawed out, and no cracks. No leaks. No burst
pipes. I
thought I had one leak, but I was mistaken. I have water in the house,
everything works (aside from some sediment plugged pipes), and no broken
pipes.
Not one. Not even the plastic one outside, laying on top of the ground,
that was
frozen at temperatures below zero for several days. Isn't God
cool?
9. This one is both ranch and
personal.I bought an
Ecoquest home air purifier for the ranch lodge here, hoping to not have
a repeat
of the horrible congestion and chronic sinus problems and infections
that
I dealt with all last winter. Let me tell you, it is such an answer
to
prayer. This unit keeps the smoke levels down (from the wood stoves I
use for
heat), the smells down, the mold down to zero, and I have not had either
the
chronic cough, the sinus infections, or the overall congestion that I
suffered
from for 6 months last year. Ask me if you need one too, and I will put
you in
touch with the Christian couple that sold me this one. Awesome little
machine.
It was spendy, but worth every penny. I am SOOO much healthier this
winter than
I was last year. And the lodge air here at the ranch is so much better
too, and
I don't worry about mold or smoke or people with asthma visiting the
ranch, or
anything like that like I worried about last year. God is so
totally taking
care of me.
There's been lots of other little
things that have
been God-fingerprints on the ranch as well. Probably too many to count
*soft
chuckle*.
And on a more personal
note....
1. God used an extraordinary set of
circumstances
to restore several friendships right before Christmas, the absence of
which have been a source of pain and confusion to me for a
long
time. I had the chance to humble myself and apologize for some of
my
actions and miscommunications in a situation that had caused a
rift
between me and several close friends a long time ago. God is
good.
2. I have good job, editing manuscripts
over the
internet for a literary agency in California, that is enabling me to pay
off
some debts and make ends meet finally, while still allowing me time to
work on
ranch stuff here. Am slowly starting to catch up with things in my life,
and
feel like a real human being again after the crushing divorce (to me
anyway)
that I went through several years ago. God is putting me back together
again,
and I am very thankful.
3. God worked it out that I got 4 like
new
snow/all-weather tires on my car, within my budget. Was kinda funny,
because I
called all over town and couldn't find what I was looking for, and was
just
driving down the road, frustrated, about to give up, and noticed
one I
hadn't called yet, and instantly prayed and asked if God could make just
this
one place have what I needed. They did, and put them on right there for
me. I
had to laugh.
4. I had the chance to drive to
Oklahoma to spend
Christmas with my family. What a good time it was too. But God's
protective hand
was on me the entire way. Time after time. First was just simply while
driving
across Wyoming and Colorado, and dealing with wind gusts up to 60mph.
But in
Kansas, my chronic lack of sleep (too many projects and things required
to do)
finally caught up with me. I was going down the road about an hour out
of
Salina, and I dozed off, apparently just as one of the aforementioned
gusts of
wind hit me. All I know is that one moment I was driving down the
interstate at
75 mph, give or take, and the next moment, I was mud-surfing in the
median (as a
friend of mine so eloquently put it *chuckle*), still at 75 mph. But let
me tell
you, mud surfing in the median at 75mph is NOT for the faint of heart.
I had 3 distinctly different thoughts
flash through
my head at that point. 1.) "I wonder if this is how it all ends" 2.) "If
the car
goes sideways, I am going to flip and roll (and probably die)". 3.)
"GOD?
HELP!"
So I took my foot off the gas, spun the
steering
wheel this way and that as the car fishtailed several time quite badly
and
almost went sideways, and when I finally came to a stop a hundred yards
later in
3 inches of water (snow-melt and rain) and another 4 inches of
the
slickest, gummiest, ickiest clay I have ever set foot in, I finally had
a 4th
thought --- "Tim, how stupid!" (that I fell asleep), and then a fifth
"Thankyou
GOD for protecting me!"
So I climbed out, got out my shovel
(standard issue
in any car trunk of someone living in the mountains in the snow), and
started to
dig myself out. But after only making about 4 feet of progress in about
an hour,
I gave up, swallowed my pride, and told God it was His turn. I
asked Him to
have someone stop to tow me out. Within 10 minutes, a Kansas State
trooper and 2
different people had all stopped (though the trooper only wanted to run
my
license and was no more interested in pulling me out than the man in the
moon.... He sat in his car and had a good laugh at the situation
*aggravated frown* ANYWAY). It ended up being a little 4-cylinder
4-wheel drive
Subaru sedan that pulled me out. Can you believe that? I think I'm going
to get
a Subaru next *chuckle*. But it was
then that I
noticed that I had originally slid to a stop in the median about 30
yards short
of a rather large and nasty looking concrete culvert, dead center in my
path of
mud-surfing travel. If I had been blown off the high way just a quarter
of a
second later at 75mph, I would have smashed into that culvert and it
truly would
have been all over. Kinda wild...... I told God thank you
again.....
But after that, I kept on going (after
I got my
license back from the trooper - no ticket or warning or anything).
And I made it home to mom and dad's
safely, wide
awake in wonderland.....
Then coming back home to Idaho, I ran
into a
blinding snow storm coming across Wyoming (near white-out conditions).
There
were cars and trucks slid off the road, spun out, in the median, in
the fence, on their sides, upside down, flipped around, you name
it, it had
happened. It was nasty. But I kept on praying, and inching along, and
finally
made it safely through the storm about 75 miles later.....
You see, I was trying desperately to
get back
before 2005 ended so I could file ranch incorporation papers. I get the
idea
that on the spiritual plane, there were forces in play that didn't want
me to. I
am SO glad God is my refuge, and that I have asked Him to forgive me my
screwups
and to just be in charge of my life. I figure that way, absolutely
nothing
will happen to me that He doesn't allow, because my life belongs to
Him,
and He is directing my steps, and He gives me what I need to be
happy,
content, and fulfilled in my life, and He protects me that way too.
Why people wouldn't want to know Him for themselves is just beyond
me. In
my book, it's a win win situation no matter how you look at it, to give
your
life to Him. This thought has hit me very hard recently.
Anyway...
5. While in Oklahoma, I got to see some
old friends
that I have not seen face to face in over 9 years. That was sooo
incredibly
cool, and bittersweet too having to say goodbye to them again to come
home to
Idaho. Each of them pray for me, and support me in friendship and
God-ways. It
was very cool to see them.
6. While there, I was wishing that I
could track
down an old roommate that I have many happy memories of caving,
exploring,
rappelling, and doing other outdoor stuff with. But I had not talked to
or seen
him since early 1995 (I think?). I hadn't even voiced it as a prayer to
God, it
was just a yearning in my heart to find and talk to Steve again in the
few short
days I had in Oklahoma/Arkansas, and find out what he was up to. I
hadn't even
made plans yet to try to find him, because frankly, I didn't even know
where to
start and had a limited schedule. But I think God heard my heart, even
though I
never voiced it to Him. Me and one of my other friends (that I mentioned
above)
went out one afternoon to talk, catch up, shoot our guns at a target
range near
his home (not where I have ever lived), and lo and behold, as we are
talking and
blowing holes in targets at the range, in walks Steve. I had to laugh.
This was
not even the town we had lived in as roommates 11 years ago. And he
hadn't been
target shooting in quite some time apparently either. So it had to be a
God
thing. It was cool. I found out that Steve is married now too and also
has a
little girl.
7. Several months ago, I asked God for
a dog to be
a companion for my daughter when she comes up on weekends. So about a
month ago,
through an odd set of circumstances, I was given a Australian
shepherd/black lab
mix, full grown dog, that loves kids. Best dog I ever had. Has bonded
with Vanya
(my daughter) and goes everywhere with her (and me - including Oklahoma
for
Christmas). That was just the coolest answer to
prayer....
So I have many things to thank God for.
It's been
very cool.
Now for a ranch recap. What am I doing
here?
This is the list of our goals here at
the ranch, as
listed in the Articles of Incorporation that I filed last
week.
.
(1) To build and
operate
Biblically based conference/retreat centers and youth camps,
(2) To build and
operate
Biblically based children92s homes and youth ranches for disadvantaged,
foster,
at-risk, troubled, or otherwise homeless and/or disenfranchised children
and
youth,
(3) To build and
operate
Biblically based crisis pregnancy homes and shelters for abused, unwed,
and/or
single mothers & women,
(4) To work with
families to
restore healthy family relationships and units,
(5) To educate the
public
concerning some of the issues facing today92s youth,
(6) To meet with
government
representatives and report to governmental committees, agencies and
boards
concerning the issues today92s youth face.
Yes, these are big dreams, and yes, I hear people
all the time
express doubt about the reality of them (and some go so far as to call
me crazy
and tell me that I am chasing rainbows in the sky), but I just
remind
them that this is a God thing, not a Tim thing, and He will make it
happen,
indeed, is ALREADY making it happen..... Just read back through some of
my
newsletters on the http://www.bighouseministries.
com
homepage and see what I mean. It's been a long slow road, and I am
human, still
making mistakes, but slowly and surely, this place is coming together
and taking
shape. It's very cool.
My job here, in some ways, is to just to help
facilitate
all the pieces coming together. Items numbered one and four
above are
already becoming a reality here at Thorn Creek where I am living. The
other
items will each fall into place in God's timing, and indeed, already
many of the
puzzle pieces for them are already waiting in the wings, ready to fall
into
place once all the pieces are ready and the whole picture is ready to be
revealed.
But I am always open to questions, thoughts,
input, help,
feedback, and constructive criticisms. This is about God's people
joining hands
to make a difference in this world, not about Tim chasing rainbows in
the sky.
If you want to help, pray about it, and then tell me. I would love to
hear from
you.
And I also want to just say thankyou to all of
those who have
prayed for me and the ranch over the past year, and have helped out in
various
ways. It's been a good year.
And I am excited to see what the next year will
bring, and
what God has planned!
Aren't you? :-)
In Him,
A voice in the mountains
-Tim
http://www.bighouseministries.
com
www.timbenedict.com
Tim
Benedict
Thorn Creek Conference Center & Youth Ranch
21
Yellowpine
Ln
Boise, Idaho 83716
208-392-6723
timbenedict@peoplepc.com